It is almost the end of 2019. Soon we will return to the roaring 20s. I never gave much thought to the distant future. However, now that it is almost 2020 I can’t help but wonder what will happen in the next 10 years of my life. In 2010 I graduated from High School. Now, at the start of the new year I am living in Northern Ireland for the second time and I have lived in Scotland and Sweden as well.
If you have read any of my other blogs you know that the purpose is for missions. While this may seem like a huge life accomplishment, I can’t help but want more. I am by no means ungrateful for the wonderful opportunities I have had in the past 10 years. I just feel like I am not doing enough. I don’t just want more things or more experiences. I want more from myself. Sometimes my mind goes wild with thoughts of wanting to foster kids, start an orphanage, or make an impact for the homeless population. There are things that we need to change in this world, and I want to spend the next 10 years of my life pursuing that change. People always say, “Be the change you want to see in the world.” Well to that I say, in true existential millennial fashion, WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?!? I’m not sure what it means or how to accomplish it, but I’m going to try.
To be honest, I don’t even remember why I started this whole blog. I don’t know what my actual motives were. I do know that I had planned to post once a week. It isn’t that I haven’t thought about it. I just couldn’t, and I’m still not sure why. So, this post may be jumpy, all over the place, and wildly random, but that is how I am and that is what I have to do to get my head back in the blogging game. HOPEFULLY I will do better this time.
So my current intention for the Lady Lavender blog isn’t to become somebody, to do what people expect, to entertain you with stories or how-to’s, or anything like that. My intention is for me to stay present and work on making things better for those around me in the here and now. I am hoping this blog will help me to do that. If you have kept up with me this long, thanks for coming on this journey and I’m sorry for the bumpy start.
I leave you with this piece of the Berlin Wall. Let it encourage us all to break down barriers in our own lives. The barriers that stop us from doing more for those around us. The ones that push us into the same old routines. The ones that make us feel like we can’t make a difference. Let 2020 be the year that the barriers come down. Happy New Year, y’all! I hope your 2020 is filled with lots of lavender. Stick around and maybe we will do some journeys together.